On Sunday, May 3, 2020, I was forced to make the decision to end the life of my little Hunny. You know her from the SUN card from my TINKER'S DAMN TAROT revised second edition. There was a reason she graced that card with her presence. For fifteen years she was the light of my life, the best part of my life, the best thing that ever happened to me. And now she's gone.

She died from a combination of heart disease AND kidney disease, both of which were farther along than I think the vet ever admitted to me. In late March, I noticed that she was breathing awfully hard. By the last week of April, I knew that the end was near. There were no good days -- just every day worse than the one before it.

My heart is broken. Even now, I can hardly bear to type these words. I miss her so  much.

I'll try to write her whole story both here and on my main blog, but it will have to wait. For now, this is all I can bear to do,

Hunny, my little sweetie, my angel, my baby -- I miss you so much. I loved you so much. Please forgive me. 



    I’m so sorry for your loss. I think the day will come when you feel her jump onto your bed at night and you’ll know she’s still with you. Peace to you.

  • Ronda Richardson

    I am so sorry about Hunny. I recently had to make that decision. It’s never easy. But we make that decision because we love them. Rest in Peace Hunny.

  • Chris

    I am so sorry for your loss. Hunny sounds like she was a really amazing soul.

    I believe our soul companions sometimes hide their illnesses from us, you can’t blame yourself for not knowing she was sick.

    My girl Ivy did this with us. She hid the giant tumor in her spleen until it was inoperable.

    I know the sudden pain of a too-soon farewell. The night before, she told me I wasn’t letting her go, I was setting her free from her pain.

    You love Hunny so much, it’s clear you gave her a wonderful life. You also gave her the best gift you could have given her – you gave her a peaceful transition – as soon as you realized she wasn’t going to be able to continue on with you. You gave her freedom from her illness and pain, and you love her enough to give her that, even though you knew it would break your heart.

    Take your time with your grief, be gentle with yourself. Grieve as long as you need to, and ignore anyone who says otherwise. 💚

    Be well. Sending comfort and strength.

  • Sharon Rose

    I am so sorry about Hunny. You obviously gave her a life filled with love and I feel confident she knew. Its never easy to make that decision but when it comes from a place of love, it is the right one.

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